My Big Brother

[Frostyface]

Feeling lost at the moment. Lost my brother on 10th Feb, he was taken suddenly, violently and much too soon, one moment he was at the top of the stairs large as life, the next he was taking his last breath at the bottom. He was only 48 yrs old. We were so close. Its so hard to believe he has ceased to exist. Can't make sense of it in my head. Inquest has been postponed in light of the Covid 19 situation until next year so no answers anytime soon. Wish i could believe in something after too, i want to believe so much. I cant shake the feeling that its just something we, "the living", fall back on for comfort or to make ourselves feel better. It would have been his birthday on May 8th, thinking of contacting a medium or something, maybe it would give me something to believe in? Some comfort? Even as a sceptic? Any opinions would be very much appreciated. Thanks for listening.