JayTay's Poems

[JayTay]

He was a hunter. He wanted to kill all of the animals on the earth. I was his daughter. I tried to develop peace between the gods and the earth. A scorpion came and killed him. We were cast into the cosmos. Orion, my father, cast me out, and I fell down. A fallen star with no more home. But I was reborn as Scorpio.

[JayTay]

I couldn't see me
Anymore
Walking in the valley
Of the shadow of death
Dead man walking
On a path of regrets
What do I do now?
No where to go now
From here
Just one more time
One more line
One last time
Can’t look in the mirror
Becaus I don’t know
That face
Can’t look in the past now
But the past
I can’t erase
The past is where
My life was
My family, kids, and place
Can’t look in the future
What future do I have?
I can’t go back in time
To change the choice
Of that first line
Just that one time
Thought I’d be fine
So I stay stuck
In this place
Down I go
Places I never
Wanted to know
Agony, regret
I wish I’d never said yes
But I did
And here I am
And I think no one
Understands
But me
And I don’t think
I can do this
Anymore
With a giant blow
Those lines did go
Not up my nose
But off the table
And step by step
I left that trip
And the light in me
Became a burning
I could see
And day by day
The pain went away
And I can finally see
Myself again

[JayTay]

And so I went
Down
Down
Down
Down
Down
Chasing that bunny
All around
I wasn't living
I was just not dying
Going down
Silent
Ashamed
Shut out the world
As I became
A memory
Of what once was me
Going down
But someone somewhere
Saw my descent
And to my womb
Grace was sent
And with that Grace
Growing there
I stood up
And I breathed...air
And the things I took
To ease the pain
I breathed in air
And blew it...away
To keep Grace safe
I breathed in air
And blew it away
First weeks were hard
Scattered parts
And open wounds
And tears that flew
But over time
I realized why
As I became dark
My light still shined
Now I see
With the eyes of the new me
Because going so far down
Allowed me to learn
There is beauty in sin
Now I can see the light in them
Who are where
I used to be
I no longer judge
Because in everyone
I see
Me
And I thank Grace
And the ones who sent
Her to me

[Owlscrying]

Beautifully written JayTay.



 

[JayTay]

Beautifully written JayTay.



 

Thank you. And thank you for setting this up for me. That is very kind

[JayTay]

I'll never let
My little witch go
Witch you yes,
Darling I know
The answer was
Never no
I had a little wish yes
For you, you know
For you to be free
Of witchiness so
You could see without seeing
And just be without being
What I know
Because
It's
Hurt
Me
So
Little witch yes
I've always known
I'm sorry I left you
All alone
Forgive me yes?
I'll come along
I love you, love,
This silly old witch
-Mom